my head is spinning

i met this kid on zanga a few years ago, and we used to talk all the time on yahoo. i had a major crush on him, but i knew there was no way he felt the same way about me. we lost contact a little while ago and i have hardly heard from him since. anyway, a few weeks ago he messaged me again and was telling me about his son that he had since we've stopped talking. then, today, this.

josh zr: hiiiiiii
sarah: hey.
sarah: how r u?
josh zr: good
josh zr: talkin to my gf
sarah: thats cool.
josh zr: yah
josh zr: can i say
sarah: what?
josh zr: i was in love wit u 2 years ago..
sarah: wow. um... what to say here...
sarah: thanks i guess.
josh zr: lol
sarah: i really really liked u too.
sarah: dont get me wrong.
sarah: but wow.
josh zr: i was goin 2 ask u out
sarah: really?
josh zr: but i dint
josh zr: yah
sarah: i wish u had.
josh zr: lol
josh zr: me too
josh zr: my boy is growin uppp
josh zr: hes walkin now
sarah: omg thats so great!
sarah: did u get it on tape?
sarah: lol
josh zr: no...
sarah: awww
josh zr: i got it on phone tho
sarah: cool.
sarah: i cant remember what's his name?
josh zr: jaxson


I've never even met him in person! I'm totally wowing right now. its like.. ive never dated anyone before.. and suddenly this boy i havent talked to in almost 2 years is telling me he was in love with me. and my answer was totally shitty.

*dies*

aren't online crushes the best?
mine from back in the day turned out to be gay.

Haha! yeah, i had one of those too. He was great. Lived in Scottland and all. And then one day he intoduced me to his boyfriend lol.

mine actually started telling me about all these boys he liked.
and i was completely floored that he liked boys.
let me see if i can find a picture of him anywhere...

him then:

him now:


and, sorry, turns out he's not gay, he's bi.
just at the time he was more interested in boys.

aw! he's cute! still talk to him?

its actually been almost a year.
but now i might message him while i'm thinking of it.

thats cool. good luck.